that goes with friendships too. total strangers can become the closest of friends in one day, and the opposite can happen too.
but sometimes, when something is gone, something else comes by. and sometimes its just one big complicated mess. tangled web..not even a triangle.
intended to cram for my chem sac. but totes faild. did some spesh n that was about it. talked a lot today, and saw a lot. went shopping for formal too.
tension was in the air as usual and as expected. sometimes i wish it would just disappear. for everyones sake.
i saw a lot of people today. TOO MANY! so there was davin ray n the usual at states. but then, crystal came shopping too, and so did my beloved wingu. on the way, i saw xtina! omg i havent seen her in ages. formal shopping too, what a coincidence. bahahahha then went to visit ian.
so then long trek for my shirt n tie began; first stop RDX. me n mui both pointed at the same shirt we liked. n so i tried it on. she tried to be protective but gg that failed o wells. saw dq n nelson. i laughed. gg
went shopping for ages, and didnt really see anything to my fancy. walked for ages and was oober tired. eventually just bought the next decent thing i saw. luckily we didnt by that first shirt, after leaving quickly with a rage. bahahahah
hugo boss shirt + white tie. saw another tie which was 170$ n better, but too $$$$$ the other tie i bought was similar, material was worse but cheaper. here it is
went to cue city aftwds. david was there too...appar im his lover 0.o sorry mui! i lost all my games. GG! so many fkn annoying phonecalls and irritants today. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz o and also, many color retarded things happened to me today. i fail with colors. sighh. LOL chem sac monday...even more sigh. exams n sacs EPIC SIGH! LOL
sat n chilld at starbucks with mui afterwards and just chatted.
the conversation lead to thoughts which sometimes just piss me off:
dont you hate it how people can be faking it to make others happy, when people can see that they are faking it?
dont you hate it when people walk all over you because you're too nice?
dont you hate it when people say im so jealous of your future girlfriend, or i cant wait to meet them, and they are either the person you want or they treat you like trash?
dont you hate it when you try really hard, but reap no rewards, or any recognition for it?
dont you hate it how everything turns out to be one giant messed up web of relationships when all you wanted was to be friends?
dont you hate it how you can plan something with someone for the future and talk about it for ages and look forward to it, but the friendship doesnt last til then for the two of you to enjoy it or experience it?
dont you hate that some childhood memories can be robbed of by the parents through their mistakes?
people come and people leave. and at times, those you want to stay n hold on to, disappear, whilst those you are waiting for, never come, and if they do, they never seem to meet you halfway.
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