deluded.

we're all a tad deluded at times. overambitious. sometimes where so delved into something and are so fixated we ignore everything else around it. and sometimes we can be so convinced we're so right, that we don't see that we are clearly in the wrong, or just cannot admit it.

i had the UMAT yesterday. i don't really know how i went. but i'm not expecting an interview for medicine anymore? i know how people say don't give up and don't be negative, but i guess i'm just being a realist. with VTAC applications opening up next week, i really don't know what else i want to do. but more about that later.

last night i watched an MV of some guy being in an abusive relationship and yet he still isn't willing to walk out. it's actually a really good song and i like it. so here it is:



in the UMAT as well there was a passage about some guy who knows his wife is having affair but does nothing because he doesn't want her to leave. i lol'd@one of the answers: something along the lines of enthusiastic with homemaking. bahahahahha

anyhow, i guess we all like seeing the best in people. the people we care dearly about and aren't willing to let go. we hang on to everything good even though the bad is blindingly obvious. sometimes this fixation can get too out of hand, and the only person that suffers in the long run is yourself.

onto other delusional matters. some people are really egotistic. they see themselves as the be all and end all and don't really see anything else. when confronted about a certain matter in regards to their opinion on certain social standings, they clearly saw things differently to how everyone else perceived it. this was actually quite eyeopening - to me at least. some people find themselves being more superior, but are they really? i just found it amusing considering this person seems to be quite the opposite. and to say something about a person who stands by you when others don't...shows how oblivious we are to how others really feel at times. their true colors.

overambition. overestimation. something i seem to always stumble over. this time - future aspirations. after the UMAT i'm beginning to think that medicine was just a tad too ambitious. so now i'm reconsidering courses. but even though i'm reconsidering courses, i still seem to be choosing courses which are probably out of my league.

need to work MUCH harder! ggggggg