Saturday, October 30, 2010

reminiscent past.

When confronted with essences of the past, we often wonder how to approach it: fight or flight.

Emotions come flooding in whether it be due to a joyous reminiscent or fear from guilt of something shameful. How we react often depends on what kind of past is presented in front of us, and often, what you never anticipated in the past, may become the one reality that exists in the future because of such happenings.

When the past is 'haunting' us, shock, fear, and stress is often incited. Why does this occur? Most people often feel such emotions if they have something to hide, something they don't want others knowing and something that they are shamed of. These are the memories that we all wish to forget, the memories that we never wanted to see again. Whilst we do live in a world full of lies, twisted webs, and deception, often many of us are to oblivious to notice the smalls facets and trail that we leave behind for people to uncover such discoveries. Nothing can be hidden forever, and the truth will always come out one way or another. Hence, if you've got nothing to hide, and a clean conscience, then you have nothing to worry about.

In contrary, when something positive from the past is relived in the present, tears of joy can come rushing through, excitement and exhilaration, and satisfaction can all be felt. These are the memories that we wanted to hold onto forever, the memories that we did not want to say goodbye to, and the memories that we would trade anything for. In such a dog eat dog society, it is these memories which provide hope for people. They give people the strength to live day to day. But as the theme of this blog is the past, they are only memories, and one must move forward with their lives. They cannot be living in memories, or living in fear of them either.
In saying that, it is often easier said than done, to let go of the past and live for the future. To do so, we must appreciate everything around us, and the people who love and care for us.

So how do we let go and just forget about it all?
It isn't easy, and there is no definite answer. Variations exist for different people, but today, when I was confronted with the past, and all aspects which lead to certain, I felt nothing. Nothing as in a weight had been lifted. And in all honesty, it was quite hilarious.

Interrelationships amongst people often become very complicated and twisted when you add a whole bunch of people and a whole bunch of emotion. From friends, to strangers,t o best of friends, to couples and so on. The change in dynamics is quite amusing to look back on in retrospect.
Anyhow, the feeling of nothing. That emptiness and lack of emotion is one of the many indicators of letting go. No longer do you hold onto the resentment of the past. No longer are you enraged at the lack of appreciation. No longer are you disappointed of standards falling short. Because you know, it is expected of such people. Feeling nothing is actually quite reassuring in a way as no longer do you feel an attachment. Whilst it is a shame, detaching yourself from the past, and the things that once consumed, is one of the most uplifting things to happen.

So whilst the past can play influential roles in one's future, they are things that have already happened. Things that we cannot control. When something does come up, and we are confronted with such issues, tackle them head of, forget about them, and move on. Cherish the ones you love, and soldier through the darker ones. Better yet, don't do anything that you would regret.
I will break these chains that bind me,
Happiness will find me,
Leave the past behind me,
Today my life begins.

1 comment:

  1. i'm linking this on my blog. end of story.

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