inspiration.

So this blog is a draft I found lying around for a few months as I gave up on it. Thought I may as well share what scraps of thoughts I had attempted to compile together before I post something new hence the short length and lack of picture.

So looking at this blog I see that posts have been diminishing as the months progress. I asked myself why. And I feel as though I have been lacking the motivation and ideas for blogging as such, which in turn, stimulated the idea of "inspiration" for this post. As with all other posts, they are all inspired by something, and that something, used to be a lot about someone. We all find inspiration in different things, whether it be a goal, a person, a thing.

As defined, inspiration is the arousal of the mind to special unusual activity or creativity. We all need inspiration to make things work, to get new ideas, and to progress, add colour, and to make something out of our lives. Without inspiration, many people often lack the capacity and innovation for something new and exciting.

Different people find inspiration through different things; goals, people, things, memories, experiences, songs, atmosphere, and this can be done so in many different ways. For the rest of this post, the focus is shifted upon the inspiration in which people give people.

People find inspiration in others throughout different means, and, not all inspiration may necessarily positive of bright and happy. Learning from mistakes can be inspiration in itself, and the actions that others do can inspire you to be the person you are.

stigmas.

Many memories and experiences stick to you. They do not go away. They are not forgotten, and you are constantly reminded of them. These stigmas often dampen our day, and result in the withdrawn reservations that we all have. They act as stains in our clothes that we cannot wash off. Like a sauce stain on a shirt, we a constantly reminded of it. Every sauce stain has its story: where you got the stain, how you got the stain, what the stain is, how how you tried to get rid of the stain.

Well, just like sauce stains on shirts, each stigma in our life also comes with a story and baggage. Such reminders and objects which can be associated with a place can often remind us of such stigmas. Whether this be a particular place, a particular person, a particular sound, a particular thing and so on. We all try to avoid such reminders as we often do not want to remember such things. Instead, we want to suppress them, forget about them.

But stigmas, like stains, do not disappear, they are always there. These are the memories that a not as extreme as traumatic, but are severe enought to hurt you, to change you, and to shape you into a different preson than who you were in the first plac.e These memories are constantly there for us to face.

We can't avoid such stigmas, or hope that they disappear. We just have to learn to deal with them. Learn to accept them. Acknowledge that they are there and have a influence on our current state of mind and the decisions we make. But like with any old shirt with a sauce stain, just one day, maybe you will finally get a new shirt and get it replaced. :)

another sauce stain on my white t-shirt.
walked across a red light and then i got fined.
but i will never see the world in gray.
it happens everyday, but that's okay.

time and change.

As time goes on people change, and yet we are all still faced with the same demons, the same dramas.

The only difference is, we tackle them head-on differently each time. Time and time again, we learn from our mistakes, we try to improve the outcome, and the people around us we want to protect change.

Confrontation of such issues change over time. When we are young there isn't such a thing as humility or shame. We do things care-freely regardless of the consequences, and as a result, we tend to ignore such issues. We become oblivious to the truth, and if we are aware of such ongoings, there is always that rock, that special someone, that we are dependent upon.

As we grow older, we try to do things our own way. We try to stand on our own two feet, and step away from the stability that has walked hand in hand with us for all these years. We try to do things that best suit ourselves, things that are most beneficial for ourselves - a more selfish, dog eat dog approach.

But as we age even more, we learn to approach things not just purely for ourselves, but for the ones we love and the ones we care about too. Your priorities change.

do you remember?

Remember the times where you can talk endlessly with your friends for hours?

Remember the times where all you want to do was eat eat EAT?!?!

Remember the times when all you can do is gossip and talk about others?

Remember the times where expressing how you feel and letting it all out wasn't awkward?

Remember the times where you just sit and chill and forget what's going on around you?

Remember the times where you run when it's pouring and just laugh about it?

Remember the times where being an Asian stinge at it's best allows you to maximise value?

Remember the times when you bump into random people you know because it's such a small world?

Today, was one of those days. Haven't had one in ages, but it was a really enjoyable night. ^^

reminiscent past.

When confronted with essences of the past, we often wonder how to approach it: fight or flight.

Emotions come flooding in whether it be due to a joyous reminiscent or fear from guilt of something shameful. How we react often depends on what kind of past is presented in front of us, and often, what you never anticipated in the past, may become the one reality that exists in the future because of such happenings.

When the past is 'haunting' us, shock, fear, and stress is often incited. Why does this occur? Most people often feel such emotions if they have something to hide, something they don't want others knowing and something that they are shamed of. These are the memories that we all wish to forget, the memories that we never wanted to see again. Whilst we do live in a world full of lies, twisted webs, and deception, often many of us are to oblivious to notice the smalls facets and trail that we leave behind for people to uncover such discoveries. Nothing can be hidden forever, and the truth will always come out one way or another. Hence, if you've got nothing to hide, and a clean conscience, then you have nothing to worry about.

In contrary, when something positive from the past is relived in the present, tears of joy can come rushing through, excitement and exhilaration, and satisfaction can all be felt. These are the memories that we wanted to hold onto forever, the memories that we did not want to say goodbye to, and the memories that we would trade anything for. In such a dog eat dog society, it is these memories which provide hope for people. They give people the strength to live day to day. But as the theme of this blog is the past, they are only memories, and one must move forward with their lives. They cannot be living in memories, or living in fear of them either. In saying that, it is often easier said than done, to let go of the past and live for the future. To do so, we must appreciate everything around us, and the people who love and care for us.

So how do we let go and just forget about it all? It isn't easy, and there is no definite answer. Variations exist for different people, but today, when I was confronted with the past, and all aspects which lead to certain, I felt nothing. Nothing as in a weight had been lifted. And in all honesty, it was quite hilarious.

Interrelationships amongst people often become very complicated and twisted when you add a whole bunch of people and a whole bunch of emotion. From friends, to strangers,t o best of friends, to couples and so on. The change in dynamics is quite amusing to look back on in retrospect. Anyhow, the feeling of nothing. That emptiness and lack of emotion is one of the many indicators of letting go. No longer do you hold onto the resentment of the past. No longer are you enraged at the lack of appreciation. No longer are you disappointed of standards falling short. Because you know, it is expected of such people. Feeling nothing is actually quite reassuring in a way as no longer do you feel an attachment. Whilst it is a shame, detaching yourself from the past, and the things that once consumed, is one of the most uplifting things to happen.

So whilst the past can play influential roles in one's future, they are things that have already happened. Things that we cannot control. When something does come up, and we are confronted with such issues, tackle them head of, forget about them, and move on. Cherish the ones you love, and soldier through the darker ones. Better yet, don't do anything that you would regret.

I will break these chains that bind me,
Happiness will find me,
Leave the past behind me,
Today my life begins.